Well, I thought that I would stop blogging after I was finished with my chemo, but I soon found out that the Lord was not finished with my "journey". I actually don't even know where to begin. All I can say is that "God is amazing!"When I was finished with my battle with breast cancer, I knew that I would never be the same person again. It changes how you feel on the inside, outside, and everything in between. The first adjustment, was this new hair that I have. That was my first blessing from God! Before chemo, I had fine, thin, straight hair. Then, when my hair started growing back I found out that
God had blessed me with a full head of thick, curly, course , really fun hair!!
The next blessing was a little more painful to receive. If any of you have heard the song by Laura Story, "Blessings", that is my theme song. My blessings definitely came through raindrops. All throughout my battle with cancer, I really felt as though I was trusting in the Lord with all of my heart. But, he reminded me very harshly, that I was not. I was still placing my absolute trust in myself and my control. I allowed the Lord control, as long as it wasn't too painful. As soon as it started getting uncomfortable for me, I grabbed those reigns. I just have to tell you, that through the love of an amazing friend, and sister in Christ, I have to come to learn what totally trusting in God means! It has changed my life and my families!! God is sooooo good. I will elaborate more as the days go by, but God has just really been prompting me to start blogging again. I can not tell you how many blessings have come my way, through my battle with cancer, and my struggle with my own control. I have been able to speak God's truth to soooo many people that otherwise I would never come in to contact with ever in my life. When I actually let myself "be still" and know that He is God, all of those blessings became so evident to me. For any of you who may read this and the rest of my story, please know that I do not want any of the glory to come my way. It all belongs to my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, who sat beside me and watched me try to control my life for such a long time. What a reunion that was when I finally was able to reach over and grab His hand and begin to walk RIGHT beside Him instead of in front of Him. Try it, you too, will be blessed. That is His promise!
"May your feet walk in holiness and
your steps be ordered by the Lord.
May your hands be tender and helping,
blessing those in need.
May your heart be humble and
receptive to one another
and to the things of God, not to the world."
